And that’s about the time she walked away from me
Nobody likes you when you’re 23
And you still act like you’re in freshman year
What the hell is wrong with me, my friends say I should act my age
What’s my age again?

What does it mean to settle? Or even worse, to be ready to settle? I feel like I have been working incredibly hard for the past six years of my life in order to ensure I have a good base to settle with. And yet it seems that I am stuck with the aura of being a juvenile freshman who wants to have zero commitments. I feel like having a laid back humorous personality is starting to hold me back. I can’t be taken seriously. And despite the fact that I really do give a damn about the things I am passionate for, I am taken as joke value. I can make people smile, but I can’t make people listen.

I am regressing back to my junior/senior high days when my self esteem was the size of empty. I am wallowing in my own selfishness and self pity. I am so polarized, such a vessel of opposite attitudes. I go from smiles to Daisy Downer faster than the shots can make my cheeks flush. I can jump from apathy to overwhelming passion instantaneously.

Its actually quite annoying.

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