>Aside from the corny reference to the Night at the Roxbury soundtrack, what is love? Baby, don’t hurt me? No more?
Yeah I guess thats sort of what I’m wondering about right now. How emo of me. But really what does it mean to like someone? To love someone? I don’t know. I thought I did, but I feel like I was clearly wrong.
There are couples out there that are dating just for the sake of dating. I’m not saying all of them are, but I bet you could point your finger at least a few couples you know and question whether they are in the relationship for love, or for just dating. I hope I never become the latter.
But if all of this doesn’t mean anything to her, than what does it mean? Who knows. One day I hope I’ll figure it out. In the meantime I’m pretty sure of at least two people, who are genuinely nice people, who might see me in a different light. Years ago, I would have jumped on this, thinking “she’s smart, cute, nice, funny, and cute, why not?” Now? Not so much. I don’t know anymore.
Now that I’ve seen another side of things, I just don’t know what I want in a relationship.
Also; always remember that when your heart says something, listen to it. Don’t wait. It will only hurt, and it will hurt much more when you are too late. Holding back is of course a great idea, when you are unsure, and don’t want to mess anything up.
But there are always moments, and these moments are ones that don’t come often. To me, I think this has happened twice in my life. Its like totally getting shafted. One I’ve held back since high school. Can you believe that? 5 years and counting. I don’t know if I still feel the same way about her, as I did before. But I sure do know that telling her would have taken a lot off my mind back then. And this second time, well I don’t even know what to say about it.
Anyways, back to studying, this sucktacular cmput 101 course. Its so awesome.